Jealousy..

It happen like this , it was the second last day before the holiday comes ..

When i reach home my friend called me and say that the boy i love is on the bus where my friend is in .. The boy was with another girl .. This was what my friend told me , i thought that maybe he was going home together with the girl .. Although i was abit jealous , i ammit it .. But i shouldn't wronged the person without making clear of the situation first ..

Holidays..

Now it was holiday , my long awaited holiday ..

i miss him so much ..

When i am at school , even when i avoid him , i still have the chance of seeing him .. From the back or even straightly into his eyes .. But now , i am unable to do anything ..

Every night , i would miss him so much , my heart would be painful every night ..

Every night , i would tell to myself .. "When am i going to let off this burden , which had followed me since i had fallen in love with him ..??" .. This was the first time that i had thought of this question?

Every night , i would think of him , until i have fallen asleep ..

My Birthday...

On 24th Oct 2007 , was my birthday ... My best friends gave me wonderful presents...

One of my friends gave me a Pooh bear for my birthday gift ,, This bear represents the boy i love .. i would hug it every night , thinking of how i wish he was at my side , with me ..

Every single night , i would think of him , imagine him , i think i am going mad or what , maybe the love for him was too deep .. Once my friend ask me to let him go , i tried , but after one hour , i still remember of him deeply ..

It was difficult for me to forget him , i tried but i can't .. I'm so useless ..

Even when i am sleeping , i still dream of him..

On 28th Oct 2007 , at around 1am , i still can't get to sleep .. I flip left and right , left and right .. Thinking of him every seconds ..

Finally , i get to sleep .. I dreamt of him ..

Guess what i dreamt of ?? .. I dreamt of him talking to me sweetly and qorqeously .. He was steading with me .. I was hoping that the dream would not end .. Never ending .. Hoping it will happen in real life .. to me ..

This was the second time that i dreamt of him ..

Before this dream , let me tell u the dream that i dreamt of it long time ago ..

It happen like this , i was in a class , and 5 more minutes to recess ..

Ring ...ring ... the bell rang ..I went out of the class , chatting with my friends ..

We were chatting happily , when he walked past .. This dream , i woke up with jealousy ..Guess what it happens , he was chatting happily with another girl , which i don't know ... I was kinda jealous , hoping that the girl would be me ..At last , i woke up ..

This were the two dreams that i will never forget , never ever ..

Question&Answer..

Q : Does anyone know when do i cry?

A: When the boy i love is hurt..



Q : What is my greatest wish?

A : When the boy i love give me a chance



Q : When am i most happy?

A : When i am with the boy i love

Heartache..

Does anyone know what am i feeling now?I am feeling devastated..Waiting for the boy which had stolen my heart..

My heart is painful , waiting for him day by day , weeks by weeks..Does anyone know how i feeling now?

My friends says that i am stupid that i did not confessed to the boy that i like him.. But i confessed to him that day.. But to no avail..

A few days later , my friend told me that why be sad over a boy?It is not worth it..
But to her it is not worth it , but for me it is worth it more than anything..

I will wait for him until the day where he will accept me , the day where we can be together.. I will wait..Even if it takes forever..

I hope so..

I really hope he can give me a chance.. A chance of having someone to love him..

A chance where i will never forget.. A chance where i will cherish it..

I still stand a chance..

My friend said that she wanted to help me , so she called me at night..

She messaged the boy , "Why you never reply *****'s message?"

He replied " ..."

She messaged the boy , "Do you know what she means?"

He replied "ya"

She messaged "What's your reaction?"

He replied "No reaction , cause alot of girls like me also"

She messaged "Why won't you give the girl who love you a chance?"

He replied "I don't like girls who are younger than me"

She messaged "Then you like *****'s grandmother lorh"

He replied "Hahaha , very funny"

She messaged "Feeling can be developed derh , so why not try?***** really likes you alot.."

He replied "Ok , when i feel like it then maybe i shall find one.."


That's what he message my friend last night..


When i confess to him , am i too straight forward?Or am i just being stupid?


When he message my friend , i was hoping that he would accept me , but did not..


I will continue to work hard , as long as there is a ray of hope , i shall not give up until i strives to the end..That's what love is all about..Never giving up for the one you love..

LoVeS..

Love is not as simple as what you see

Love is not easy to understand

Love is precious to a person

Love is a strength to give a person strength


Don't fight for love

If he loves you means he loves you

Nobody can snatch him away

That is true love




Shower the person the love you want to show

He/she will also show you the love back if she/he loves you

~LoVe~ Tips

~Boys~

1)Never let a woman foot the bill

2)Buy for woman presents oftenly

3)Be polite to woman

4)Do not avoid the person you like

5)Be straight forward towards the girl you love

6)Look deep into her eyes when you talk to her

7)DIAN the girl


~Girl~

1)Do not avoid the person you like

2)Be straight forward towards the boy you love

3)Try to get near to the boy and make him happy

4)Be attentive when he talks to you

5)Try to smile to him when you saw him

6)Try to look into his eyes when you talk to him

7)Try to get near him

Avoiding him..

Everyday , when i am at school , i was afraid of seeing him..

Today when i went to school at 7.15am , i tried to walked away from the Parade Square as i will see him there..

But i couldn't..

Why do i have to avoid him?!Why am i always afraid to see him?!

Today during recess , at 10.35am , my teacher let us go to recess..But when i went to the canteen , i saw the Upper Sec there and i was afraid to see him..

Everyday i have to act like thief so i wouldn't be able to see him..

Hopes

Those who are in LOVE , i want to tell you all that as long as there is hope , there will always be a chance for you..

If he rejects you , continue to buck up.. Continue to win his/her heart.. Never give up!Strive harder!

Best wishes..!^^

Feelings which can be felt by few..

Every seconds and moments , i cannot stop thinking about him.. Every place i went i will think of him , every things i do i will think of him..

Feelings of love have this special type of feeling deep inside our heart..

Sometimes , you just want to let your the emotions out which you have been controlling in your heart.. When you are controllng , you just feel that you wanted to let the person know that you like him/her , but you are just shy to tell him/her..

Is it really that difficult to let out the feeling which had been kept in your heart for so long?

Sometimes , when you see the person you like , you just want to went forward to tell that person that you like him/her..

If there is a person you like , be sure to tell him/her your feelings towards him/her..Don't store that feeling in your heart , it is unbearable..

Confession towards the boy..

On 1st October 2007 , i made my confession ..

After school , when i reach home , i open my dad's laptop and went to friendster and have a look ..

The friendster horoscope says ,

Let your emotions out today - step right up to that person you have been avoiding

The friendster horoscope sure is accurate ..

So when i am having my dinner , i took out my phone and message him ..

Here's what i message him -

I got one important thing to tell you , i er.. er.. I.. I.. .... you.. Understand?

But he did not reply..




On 2nd October 2007 , i message him again ..

Here's what i message him -

If you did not get what i mean , never mine.. If you get what i mean , i just want to tell you this.. I am just wondering if you would give me a c-h-a-n-c-e?You need not reply now but i just want to tell how i felt towards you.. Controlling my emotions in my heart hurts.. I just want to let it out.. You can reply anytime you like..

Met him at the staircase..

"Ai , we go locker put our books now!"i said to my friends.We hurried and went to the locker.. It was 2pm ..

When i walk up the first staircase , i saw the boy's classmate and i know he would be there .. I was going to reverse , but then the last boy i saw was gone and the boy was no where to be seen.So i continued walking ..

I was going to turn right and suddenly i saw the boy and our eyes met ..

I quicky dash up the staircase just as to avoid him .. After he was gone , i went to the locker ..

That day , i called my mother and she said that she would be fetching me at 3.30pm as she wanted to wash finish the clothes first ..

That day , i walked towards the fish pond , walking round and round just to think of the incident that happened at 2pm ..

I was shock and happy at that time .. Shock was that just now i saw him and he saw me and our eyes met .. Happy was that i was able to meet until him .. Love is a funny thing isn't it?

My friends from my class walked by and ask me to accompany them .. They were walking towards the canteen but i declined as i am afraid that i will see the boy at the canteen .. Why should i avoid him ?? .. I was thinking of this question every now and then ..

Met him at the canteen..

On tuesday , i met him again .. It happens like this ..

"Hey ! Let's go to the canteen to have our lunch first before going to the math remedial at 2.30pm !" i shouted to my friends.We went to the canteen and my friend found a place near the field.

I sat down and walk to the store and have my lunch bought and i sat down eating ..

Suddenly , the boy came and sit two tables away from me with his friends .. When i saw him , i almost choke .. As i like him , but i don't dare to see him ..

So my lunch was half eaten and i threw it away and hurried my friends to go ..

When i walked to the fish pond , my other bunch of friends were still there .. As just now i went to the canteen was my other bunch of friends .. I chat with them and suddenly , the boy appeared and he walked towards the lift ..

I saw him and quickly scurried to my math remedial class ..

The story where i first met him..

I still remember..It was around Jan to Feb where the boy first join in the CCA - Infocomm..

I keep on smiling at him and try to play with him , at that time i had not developed the feeling for him..

Slowly and slowly , we exchange phone numbers.. At the next lesson , the boy always stick to my group with his other classmate..

But one day , one day.. As he kind of bullied my friend , but not really bully , so i when towards him and pulled his shirt.. I did not do it on purpose , i was just not happy as he bullied my friend..

He went towards me and pulled my shirt , i was kind of angry as i am a girl and he just pull my shirt like that.. So for two weeks , i don't even bother to talk to him..

But after a few weeks later , we became friends again..

Introduction

Does anyone know what the feeling of love is about?


It's very interesting , when you have that special feeling in you ..


You would like to see the person every seconds , every moments ..


Sometimes , you would do something silly just to make him smile ..


You will be thinking of him now and then , when you are eating , bathing or even sleeping , you would dream of him sometimes ..



I can feel it cause i have a crush on a boy..



A special kind of feeling in your heart..Which can be felt , a warm kind of feeling..